One of those days.

I just want to stick my head inside a giant blender.

Let the blades slash open my skull. Turn my brains into mush.

I don’t want to live anymore.

This is that point, my rock bottom, when pills won’t work.

And the worst part? It’s my fault. I can’t even blame anyone else.

I keep thinking I’m okay. I’m okay. Present tense. But now I see that I’ll never be. I’m stuck in the rut of depression and there’s no way out.

Just frigging kill me. Already. Please.

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21 thoughts on “I’m (Br)OK(en).

  1. I hope that you will be alright. I know how overwhelming life can be sometimes but I can tell you that there will be good days as well as bad. You just have to take things one day at a time and do the very best you can. See someone professionally if needed, there is no shame it. Just know that you are never alone.

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      1. I would say that the most important thing is that you feel well. People who truly care for you will always do so no matter what you may look like or what you are going through. Just hold on and get better.

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  2. If you need to talk, you have my address… I think you have many more than two friends, right here; you also have K, and me, and, I’m sure, others you are not aware of, feeling as you do…. Try to NOT take pills for it; all you really need is to find a way to do what pleases YOU, then, do that for a time, and spend time talking with people you know will help you (such as me…)

    Whatever is troubling you will pass; remember that, okay? Be strong, little one… You are loved.

    gigoid

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